Today was an eventful day, but also very slow at the same time. It was a weird feeling... lets just leave it at that. Well ok, i stay at c-rabbits house last night so we all decided to wake up at 8:30 and just chilled for a while. Well we were all just sitting in his back and i brought up how i wanted to get some "bump" in my truck, and Chandler says "well then lets put my two 12's in your car", and within 2 hours, it was all set up and ready to go, and only for the small cost of 75 bucks. Its so freakin awesome, I am very happy. Well after this i was invited to a food fight at pecan park, which sounded like fun so i decided to show up. Weeeeeell ok, it was kiiinda fun, but reeeeeally gross, and i went home and took a massive shower right afterwards (and i still feel gross). Then I grabbed Greg Muth to take him to the Flea Market on hwy 6, which we soon found out was closed. On our way back, i made another trip to chandlers to do some finishin touches on the subs and then headed home. Everyone was doing homework later today so i couldnt find anything to do, finally mrs.onks said that she had some free time and we met up at the park, jeff then showed up a little later, and then we went to go see kourtney stauffer at chic-fila. It was fun, I havent been able to spend alot of time with Kaitlyn lately, and she really is one of my favorite people, so i was glad we could spend that time together.

So now i sit here after a pretty kool day and write in my xanga, and for some reason, feel like im still missing something... whatever i guess ill try to ignore it for now...

well you guys take care, ill keep ya updated

later everyone!

heeeeeeeeeeeey guys, wow... im really slipping again, my bad. i promise i will keep posts coming more frquently. i've just been too tired every night i get home, but tonight, i am fighting it and filling you guys in on everything thats happened.

the only thing is.... that doesnt include too much, so this shall be relatively short. To start off, we are recording at 7A Studios w/ Chris Goodwin, and SOON (maybe like two weeks tops). schools a drag, but thats nothing new... 4 more weeks, lets pick up the pace. I settled everything out last weekend that i said i would, so thats awesome. ummm another (top secret) band project maybe? (its actually not secret... just thought thatd make you more intrieged lol). As far as the week went, i spent more nights at home and actually got some work done, which was desperately needed if i want to pass anything this last 6 weeks.

This weekend is a three-dayer, and so far, it hasnt been too bad. Yesterday, i went to chandler's house after school, and thats always a good time. Afterwards, i headed over to Travis' party. It was pretty decked out, he had an inflatable castle with a jousting ring... greatest thing ever. Other than that it was mostly swimming, and all that good junk.

So Today i wake up to phone call from mrs.Emily Perkins, and so she tells me shes right outside my house, and tells me to come outside. so im sitting here, in my boxers and for some reason agree to this. weeeeell i go out side and car full of girls is waiting for me outside haha. It was emily, christina, kylie, and sara. And even after this was  all over, i go outside and my car is written all over, AGAIN. and this time it says "nice boxers" which im sure will be fun parading around town lol. They all got a good laugh at my expense, but its ok, theyre just lucky i have a sense of humor!! But this also doesnt mean these acts dont come with reperations... juuuuust wait, me and neal are planning something! Moving on with my day, i went to quizzno's with cody, neal, sahil, and clayton. Then i was at neals for a while, emily and jordan ephram show up and we all talk for a lil bit right before me, neal, and darian leave for hooters to meet up with rita, mary, jeff, and clint to watch the rockets lose AGAIN... bastards always choking... We spent a good two hours doin that, then i went to see Dolliver's last show, and Alex Johnson's first show with them. We all hung out there till 11:15 buuuut it turned out Dolliver was the last to play, and all the other bands took forever, so yeah, it ended up, we didnt even get to see them cuz we hadda be back by 12 and there was still a band left to play before them when we left.

Today was also very expensive, i started with a fresh 30 bux and now have 8... and i need to save up for the Fall Out Boy cd that is coming out in three days!

New season of Family guy Tomorrow night... just thought i'd throw that in there.

maybe this entry was longer than expected, oh well, its your time not mine haha.

Dunno whats happening tomorrow, but im just glad we dont havta wory about school the next day.

Well, that about ends this story, but i will try and keep myself from such belated posts, this way they might not be so long lol.

well take care guys, and live life like its going out of style.

well this is my entry from last night that i wrote but my internet shut down while i was writing it... so thats why i hadda wait till now to post it... gay internet.

Yoooooooooo! sup everybody, it is thrusday, 10:30 in the pm and i just got home. Today i went to fca and then moooooore frisbee after school. Everyone left around 9:15 so me, janelle, greg, and later cody, just hung out till about 10... cuz we know where the party is at... thats right. Anyways. the weekend is drawing closer and i am for some reason in an excited mood right now. i've still got some unfinished business i need to attend to, and its been bugging me for a lil bit, but its all good... ill straighten it all out this weekend.

....anyone wanna read "of mice and men" for me?...

i need to get my liscence plate changed (seeing as how i have a florida one right now) if i want a parking permit, so im gunna be doing that soon. the thing is, i dunno if i wanna write something on it or not, and if i did, i dunno what i would put. i guess ill find out when i get it.

oh and what you are listening to right now is from the new fall out boy cd, i cant wait at all, it comes out may 3rd and its going to be amazing...

also make sure you get the Early Novembers acoustic ep when it finally gets released in stores, notsure on the date, but it is soon. And after buying that, save your money for THE EARLY NOVEMBER TRIPLE CD!! (Oct.25) as well... theyre genius

anywaaaaaaaaaays, i broke my g-string the other day....
well... on my guitar haha. i've had to carry around my dads old national acoustic, it looks like a giant/fat violin... but ya know, i might even like it better a little bit.

my sis' graduation invitations come in tomorrow, its so crazy how fast this year has really gone. next year is gunna be really weird with half of my freinds off doing their own thing, as well as my sis... just me and my two brothers... my mom is gunna hate it lol. but its gunna be hard seeing alot of these people go, i'm really close with all of my senior freinds, but i know neal and cody will be stopping by almost every weekend and im going up there as well, so thats something to look forward to. I've just gotta make this a kick ass summer with all of them before they leave.

...time warner cable sucks as an internet provider... i need dsl again...

actually through half of this post i was kicked off the internet and had to come back and finish... how gay is that?

well there wasnt really a point to todays post lol, just abuncha raaandom thoughts that are floating through my head!

crap... i just missed family guy, well im gunna get some yogurt and wait for it to come back on again... at 1:30 in the am... lol catch you guys later!

...girl come to me, the only broken hearted loser, you'll ever need....

Hey again everyone, in the middle of TAKS week, which is actually a good thing because its no hw and i have an awesome room. I'm in there with rita, jeff, eric thomas, and kourtney stauffer. This is also the last year we ever have to worry about it, so im ready for this week to speed by. I went to c-rabbit's place for the day and then went to hometeams with jeffery st.onge, we just kinda ran into eachother on hwy 99, it was kool. afterwards... of course i played some ultimate, and thats always enjoyable.on kind of a bad note, this weekend's show has been moved back to earlier may. The whole band thing is still going good right now and i am still going to record my own songs soon, ill let ya know as soon as you can go hear them. other than that, not too much is going on, my after school life is pretty much hanging out till i get a call from someone. (so if your ever bored, gimme a call).

There wasnt much to write about, but i figure i should keep this thing updated.

and i will leave you with this...


"hopeless love" by Daphne Loves Derby

200 miles away from home
200 miles beneath this lake is where my heart belongs
But you don't care at all
You wouldn't even smile if I were screaming as the water filled my lungs, oh my lungs
You demand to be chased for your love
My desperate heart is far too weak to run for you this long
But you don't care at all
There's nothing I can do to draw you close to me
Can you take this silence like a pill so I can breathe again
I've been trying to ignore the best parts of you
But I'm still hoping that I'll be with you somehow, somehow
Please be home tonight
I'll die if I don't get a chance to make this just right
I'm sorry but I can't forget about the way I feel
Every time you're here.
What would it take for me to be with you
I swear I'd rip my heart out if you said you'd be impressed, please be impressed
I'd go so far to please you but I bet you wouldn't care at all, oh at all
Hopeless love please leave me
This broken heart is far to weak to run for you this long
Why don't you care at all?
I'm dying for a place in your heart.
Can you take this silence like a pill so I can breathe again
I've been trying to ignore the best parts of you
But I'm still hoping that I'll be with you somehow, somehow
Please be home tonight
I'll die if I don't get a chance to make this just right
I'm sorry but I can't forget about the way I feel
Every time you're here.
Hopeless love, why did you carve your home in me?
This broken heart is too weak to hold your weight
And now I regret the day we met
And help me forget your name.

theyre on purevolume... check em out...

well thats my 2 cents, take care guys.

hey everyone, i thought it was about time to revive my little xanga i had going for a little while. Alot of things have been happening lately, nothing life changing or huge, but i have been kept busy.

This weekend was nice, it was three days long, so i got a MUCH needed break from school. Lets see... thursday i went to fca after school to hang out with that whole bunch of kids and then afterwards we watched the end of the softball game, and then left to get ultimate! ultimate frisbee has gotten to be a phenomenon around here, it went from the 6-7 person orginal group, to the near 100 that were playing that night... its ridiculous! but its kool, cuz that game is good fun, and the more the better.... cept if they take it too seriously, then theres a problem lol.

but anyways, Friday night was also a good time, i got suprise my oldest freind, who i've lived next to for 12 of my 17 years, alex matson, for his birthday. it was at griffin covingtons house and we all just hung out around the hot tub. i had alot of fun and was really happy i could spend that time there. I haven't seen as much of that kid as i would of liked to this past year. I get to take him home every day, so we get a daily chance to talk, so thats pretty awesome.

Saturday was definately bad ass, i spent the whole day at rita spicers place hanging out by the pool, and yes, another hot tub. Around midday, everyone dried off and once again, got ULTIMATE, it was one of the most fun games i had played in a long time. That night, everyone went town square cuz apparently a "good" movie was being shown. well, we get there and its "a cinderella story" with freaking hillary duff, (the crack head, sister's ex-boyfreinds's cousin, wanna be teen idol). it was alright though, i got to see all my freinds, and me and neal had a fun time making fun of the motion picture.Then, back to rita's, listened to some good tunes, went to neals for the night.

Today came and i started it by washing my ghetto car (that is now smoking everytime it is driven and i no longer feel safe driving until i get it checked). Then i went to emily's place and hung out with her, tracie, and sara for a little bit, which was really kool. She has become a good freind lately and im happy. Well after that, i came home, got online, and started up this xanga again.

I have deleted all of my old entries, kinda symbolic... i feel things have changed so much lately and i just needed a freash start with everything. My old entries were exactly that, and whats their purpose now but to look back at that awful year. This year is going considerably better, i've started spending more time with all of my freinds cuz i have my own means of transportation. There has been some drama, but when is there not. I have come to the conclusion that i should take everything for the exact opposite of what it is, because apparently nothings what it seems. Im not saying my freindships are shams... of course they arent, but it seems that anytime it seems i might of found someone i want to be with and take care of, the other side isnt willing to committ. I know, it'll pass and i'll be fine, i am dealing with it, its just hard. I have just felt that i have finally reached a point in my life where i have grown out of that young boy that was confused and wasnt quite sure what he was looking for and reached a much more concrete state of mind. I know what i want now, the only problem is, this has to be mutual, if your the only sure one, it just can't work. I actually wrote a song about this over the past week, its one of my own acoustic peices (which is one of the three songs i will be posting on purevolume.com soon). Basically its about a person in my current situation, trying to convince another that it he wants to take care of her and it will all be  okay, and hoping she will make up her mind in his favor. What i havent put in this song, which is a lesson i have only recently learned, is that never predict anything...

well, here it is... no title yet... sorry


ill go to sleep again
not to know what rests my head
nor to question my dreams
and its all that i could do
not to stay awake and keep from you
lets fall in love tonight

*as i look into your eyes
im drowning in a feeling i cant explain
and you know i would open my lungs
if you said that sinking was the only way*

still young and not quite sure
what we want and who we are
we're questioning ourselves
so ill ask "is it ok?"
"if i walk you home today?"
"or should i just kiss you right now?"

oh, we'll be careful
we'll play it safe
im promising we will
we will be okay


Where the chorus(*) falls into play is the fact that it had been forever since i had that "butterfly" feeling, and it finally came to me lately, even through other "crushes" it wasnt quite there, its the feeling of being excited because you've found what you had been looking for. It was just something i missed and was finally brought back.

Even thought everything didn't quite work out as i wanted to, i still have an awesome person for a freind, and a got a nice song out of it, that i can play whenever i am feeling what i felt that day.

Well once again, thats just a look into my life, it feels good to update again, and to all that took the time to read this, thank you and i commend you, haha i wouldnt of been able to do it. I think it is time i give my fingers a break, they've been working overtime. Oh yeah! side note: i'm on the job hunt now! best buy maybe? dunno yet, still checking it all out... either way, i will be getting income soon! alright im out... goodnight and take care of eachother.